Premonition

I'm in the arms of another.
Distaste.
From the beginning, I felt at odds.
Odd.
I don't remember feeling this way for anyone I've come to be with.
Not even close to what I think I should feel.
Pleasant moments.
So much of the shallow in tune.
But I've always been one to reach out for the deep.
A familiar face appears, fades in the strange and invisible world of my mind.
Kindred spirit, then gone.
Reality looks like a grim and cracked road.


My second attempt at escape is successful as instinct, no, the Ruach was not silent.


Sigh...no tears this time.
It was tough to break, but was the right thing.
Gonna be a long road alone huh? Yeah.
It's okay.
Back to music.
Back to family.
Back to bonds.
Back to avoiding the pollution of the world.
What a series of lessons, huh?
My heart has toughened.
The muscle I work out the most.
Its strength invisible like the wind, and yet still leaves marks of its presence.


You'll be okay.
You know it would've been way too tough to keep together such odd puzzle pieces.


I need someone who just fits. It shouldn't be a grind that breaks our edges.


Friend now...or maybe stranger? Take care.
I don't intend on falling for anyone.






It's the 15th of July and I'm chin-deep in love.