Lost in Translation

On the surface, we've been wed for nearly a month (Gregorian). In reality, we have been wed for nearly a year. A little over one moon (true "month") away until that anniversary's arrival.

Marriage to you, Lola, is similar to my marriage to Yah.
Whether you can see me or not, I must stay true.
Even within my thoughts do I check myself.
I am often asked how it feels to be married, and I cannot attest to some astronomical change as to how I feel.  Maybe this was due to my prior Covenant made with Yahuah. (Being the Overseer of our union, He is ever-present and relevant).

Maybe commitment is so threatening an idea to typical people of today because they lack the commitment to our Creator. Without the attachment that is the most natural and fundamental to have, being the aforementioned, how does humanity expect to handle shallower commitments?
The lesser is now magnified to being such a monumental meld while the Greatest is altogether dismissed. THAT is the reason for so much divorce and discord in unions of today.
Ultimately, it is our lack of a bond, and lack of a profound love for our Creator that we are so lost and disoriented as we travail the span of our lifetimes.

I am consumed, reliant, vulnerable, endowed, and subservient in my marriages. 
It is my personal goal to breathe my last in such a condition.
Continually active in my pursuit of my loves.

I can always love you better.
I am with you, yet I miss you.
Your beloved, continually trying,

Hart

To my sleeping beauty...

Honeymoon night number four:

What a time to be alive.
The storm of much busy-ness has passed as we paddle onward toward new land.
The world now seeing more of a union, established long before its current comprehension, seems to be in wonder.
Sigh...the matters we undergo for the sake of righteousness...

I reflect on days past.
Our love: SWEET.
Never have I loved anyone like this.

So much to do, but life is about the adventure.
Like a movie, what sense is it that the resolution come directly after the dilemma is established?
The plot would be shallow and the movie would surely be a bust.
So much more to our story I'm sure. A story of a love battling many odds in varying lands and times.

Invisibly, we have a giant force pulling for our success.
Eyes do not witness our conferences with Him and as many minds cannot fathom His existence, yet He walks between us and continually teaches us how to perfect our love.
Love to others, to each other, and to Him.

I am overflowing with feelings and words where I must simply follow and trust.
There are great winds and storms seeking to destroy us, but Your ship is sturdy, O Yaua.
Our public covenant has been made and now many wonder at our buoyancy.

You answered my prayer, O Yaua, and have delivered to me a perfect match.
I did not think to meet her so soon after my request, but I trust I have her in my life at this time for purposes only You now know.

I love You and in turn greatly love she whom You have sent.
Thank you, O Yaua.
Your servant, your apprentice, thanks You.

My beloved, whom I am freshly wed by several moons:
May I show you what love I feel in my spirit.
Everyday of my life, I vow to show you.
May I die in this attempt, only to die satisfied in attempting to achieve a seemingly impossible goal.

Dearest Yaua, grant my request:
Favor Loren always and may a berakah of Your perfection be around her always?

Selfish Venting

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I've been bottled longer than I can remember in recent times.
My core is cracked due to its thirsty and dry dry skin.
With enough moisture only to stay alive, it chooses careful movements.
Its watering oasis, its home, is further than its host can travel on foot without disrupting the ebb and flow of The Preparations.
Soon enough, this holy land will miraculously be a floating island hovering into the desert valley of Angels.
Until that promised day of miracle, the seldom visits must suffice.


This is a time near the end.
And the days have never been so dark.


Refreshed, I leave a heavenly realm to return to the dirt.
The earth of unpaved road ready to drink my grunt-earned sweat.
Ignoring the annoyance of fingernails stuffed with work, this core is beating and much alive.


These strides will count the most.
Heaving heavy burdens aside and into their place.
Sinews stretching out to the burning borders of a body's limit.
Caught in the movement, our goal in sight.
A universe unknown yet sure to be golden.
Will, the gravity carving my free-fall into the heart of my heart.
There's never been a more wondrous time.
Beautiful horizon, the hope you playfully hid from me is now mine and my pursuit is near its end.
Hope has become joy as I feel only the very beginning of your embrace.
At such distance, I am grateful. Still, you promise me so much more.
And for that, I am yours forever. 

Chatter

My mind is a buzz.
Restless, I am!
About a week away from your arrival.
Last I saw you, we were roughing it in Texas.
Okay...so we weren't roughing it, but you get me.
Tat's all healed up.
At the moment, I'm in a place of peace.
We have our looming plans and expectations and I can say that I'm at a place that I do not often reach.
A place without worry!
That reading of Kepha walking on the water is still ringing in my ears.
I keep re-imagining his noticing that "strong wind" and the panic and failing that followed.
With this trust in Him, I feel so light!
My ache to have you near has not subsided...but it's nice to have a lighter load.
Anyhow, I look forward to all the changes coming up.
I've always been one to welcome a change of scenery.
I've been here for so long, but I'm expecting a different world to open up having you here.
Not for the visit, but when you're here for good.

Sigh.. le band stuff is bugging me though.
I wonder if we'll make the deadline for releasing our EP.
Kinda sucks when there are factors you can't control, but what is life without adventure eh?
See my optimism there? That's me trying not to freak out about what I can't control.
Trying to tame my beasts. Sigh..
Missing you always.
Looking forward to our next reading.
I love what comes out in our convos from those.
We should never have a drought of Water ever again! Haha, I don't know about you, but I feel so invigorated.
I don't know how we're gonna balance the easy-reads with the hardcore umm...'dry'? readings.
We'll find a way I guess.
Looking forward to our dates, hun!
Sorry I'm not around more.
Thank you for loving me anyway.
The fast was brutal, but I seriously have been having a better time with those things we asked for.
I wonder how you're faring.
Hopefully you're well rested for your all-day tomorrow.
I'm hoping to be up once you're getting ready to start so I can give you at least a little company in the morning!
Hey, I've got the rest of this day-off to catch up on sleep.
You got texts from me today complaining about my weekly ail.
Just gotta say, there's something about seeing that system in action that churns my stomach sooo sour.
To be so close to it!
Anyway, thanks again for hearing me out.
I don't know if you fully get where I'm coming from and see what it is I see concerning it, but hopefully one day you do.
So many other details of the day, but I'll save that for when I see you next.
Looking forward to that time!

Yours.

We're Married...and We're Not

Is marriage not a Scriptural concept?


The first human marriage was with the first woman and man who lived in the garden of Eden.
How in the world could there have been a priest, pastor, rabbi, or insert-religious-leader-title here, to officiate?


Maybe I missed something, but in all the instances of there being a marriage in Scripture (The TaNaK and the Messianic Writings) I've never seen one where a third-party other than the Almighty was needed to "officiate" a marriage.
In honor of this fact, may it be known that Lola and I are, yes, married!
Thank you. Thank you.


I have promised to love, appreciate, and protect my dearest, Lola for the rest of my breathing days.
My best friend, my other half, the love of my life who I hope to grow old with, LOLA!
There is no one like you.


I am a man greatly favored considering I have been allowed to have someone like you to reciprocate my love in that perfect way that you do.
Todah Yah for her in my life!


When did this covenant happen?
On the 5th day of the 8th moon in the Gregorian year 2011.
Our engagement rings are tattoos that read in Paleo-Hebrew: 8.5.11 with Chet/Het, Hay, Yod Aleph




Some may be confused by this marital announcement considering we have yet to have a traditional wedding.
Have we shunned all that away?


Well, as a means to appease our "traditionally-inclined" friends and family we will hold a wedding ceremony to officiate the government's definition of a marriage.
As of now, that will be on the Gregorian Sun-day of August 19th, 2012.


In the meantime, we await and plan away what we can with the Almighty guiding our lives.
Where we will be lead, only He knows.
Pray for us?


Here are some other pics from our reunion in the 9th moon (Gregorian-December 2011)

Shalom.

Aches

Dearest Silence,
Would you numb these moments?
Crowded times of many breathing,
What a wondrous aching.
Hold back my watering eyes,
You know that I cannot swim very well.
I've found the rest of my being and yet this treasure is beyond my sight and reach.
What grating;
Some invisible place, stoney and sore.
With what, how do I quell it?
What medicine can remedy my ailment?
All my methods of coping are of short use.

Moments, you are expelled.
Vacate as I exhale.
At my whim, I will release you in song and yelp and sob,
As long as you leave.

Many moons must wax and wane until the arrival of that Day.
None other than the very one that begins with my self, completed.

Return quickly, beloved.
Tarry briefly as your absence shortens my breath.
Pain lingers in my parts, the half that I hold.
Battle-wounded yet preserved, I await with Silence, my companion.

How I love thee and will never again breathe a breath that lacks this love,
Yours