2-D Love

Others have it worse, but it's tough not to ache for her.


Virtual methods of communication fail in comparison to the human kind.
They're beginning to frustrate.
As if continually teased with the inferior, the untruth, my instincts rebel.
"It cannot be my love. I cannot see her eyes. There is no texture to her skin. Her voice is not all her own."


I guess there are worse things.
Yah-willing, this is all temporary anyway.


What a reunion we'll soon enjoy!






Lovesick, I wait.

Ohio Is For Lovers

After all the hoops and hurdles of the flying business, I arrive in Ooooooooohio. 


People live everywhere, and our number continually astounds me. With so many years having passed in the length of our human history, it only makes the more sense that we are great in number and variety.


The airport is cool (temperature-wise) and it feels great to be traveling alone. I make my way down halls. Walking down escalators. There seems to be some kind of subway system within the airport. Ehh..I trust my feet over this novel sight as I am puzzled as to where I'd end up.
Longest hallway EVARRR (exaggeration) 
I see her before she sees me.
My face already beams.


Like one of those movie greetings at the airport between loves, we squeeze...we kiss!
Butterfliorama to see her once again.
After some moments of gaze, I look over her shoulder to notice an old man in a wheelchair staring with such a puzzled look on his face. 
We laugh.
We leave.


A blast of hot, humid air hits me as we leave the airport's air-conditioned establishment. The beginning of all the little things that I miss as I reminisce. 
The air had a different smell.
I can even imagine it now. 
As if I could smell the sweat of the trees.
Pleasant.
A green green scene, speechless moments find me as I realize over and over again that I am reunited with the love that has ruined me for any other.
Gladly, i am ruined.


We are endowed with nearly 24 hours together. 
More than we anticipated, it is spent lovingly.
We explore home.
Then, VBS. My love in an apron was just adorable, believe me. Some quality time with Mama Gail.
Ice cream.
Home, fam games. Scattergories!
Next, casual talk around the table.
Hot seat much?  
Well, it wasn't that bad...a lovely situation  actually.
Getting late.
Shower and changing.
Teeth brushing.
Here, I imagine this is what it'd feel like to live with her.
Sharing the washroom, blowing kisses in mirrors, laughing as we ready to sleep.
Basement.
Pool.
Why or how we got there?
Nope, it left.
Kisses.
Sleepytime.
Here, we speak deep of our forever...and agree.
Daybreak.
Patio breakfast.
Cicada.
Lakewalk. Love. Sweat. Sweat. Laughs. Pics. Sweat. Love. Love. Love. Love.
Scripture in our walk.
Ready for departure.
But first,
Chipotle.
Sadder.


My home, my heart I leave in Cincinnati, Ohio.

The Present: Parentals

Irony! The unimaginable becoming reality.
Papa draws suspense as a hanging answer lingers in the air.
With time on our side, will the slate of steel will soften?

Texas: A New Frontier

She has arrived.
The tell-tale test of our time together...trippy.


What events lie ahead?


With time, all will be revealed.
With faith and trust in the Most High, our lives will never steer off-course.
Yahuah, You are the living water keeping us alive. Todah!

Flashback: The Garden

Bare feet.
Slow steps.
We wander the garden of a concrete land.
Kisses.
We squeeze each other close.
Often enough, blurring our vision to fall into the other's eyes;
Our common practice.


Loving our day away in the garden.


I envied Adam and Chuwah having all the time they wanted..walking around enjoying each other's company without the pressures and limits of time and place that we did.


Waiting for something that will last forever...




My partner in time..


We speak of eternity.
We speak of our favorable colors.
We speak of where we most enjoy our time.
We speak without words.
We speak with our kiss.
We speak with sighs.
We speak and speak and speak.


May I never cease to love her.
May I be all that she desires of me.
May I be hers.


We did our best to capture those beautiful moments, but no lens can give me what her beating heart does.
How I long for my living, breathing, love.

The Never-Ending Tiny Wonders

I am reading through Mishle/Proverbs, as you know.
For fun I wish to capture a moment that I received not 5 minutes ago.


I believe I first heard this quoted at Ian and Kim's wedding, but knew not where it was from.


Mishle 18:22
He who has found a wife has found good, and receives favour from Yahuah.


Within that moment of JUST finishing this verse as I read inwardly, I am being called by my pops.
I go to him and catch a package sent from her.
My eyes are drawn to the bottom right corner where a message reads "I love you".
Todah Yahuah, for your favour.


Lola, I love you too.

Toronto, Or Not Toronto

Pack light.
I can never sleep well the day before something big:
Nights before the first day of school..
Days before a Disneyland trip..
Sleep didn't come easy before my trip to Toronto.


Updates came. Updates left.
You'll be stopping in Ohio, no Georgia, no Michigan.
Nerves.


The final word: 
Cincinnati it is.
W00t!
I would arrive something like 8am and leave sometime like 4pm.


We make it through the day.
Excitement bubbling up through our conversations.
The sun and moon so distant from each other, will now finally meet.
Night falls. My flight leaves late.


Do I stay up?
Do I sleep a few hours?


Nerves.
I stay up. Anime episodes.
Darkness seeps into the already dark night.
Sleep overcomes me..


I wake to be hurried out the door.
Bag grabbed.
Freeway.
Traffic! Ugh!
Pops drops me off. 


Frantic. 
findwheretogo wheretogo wheretogo WHAAAAT? I hafta get in a line cuz the machine won't read my passport??


30 min from departure dwindle to one as I JUST reach the attendant.


Defeated.
I try to call my pops.
He left his celly at home.
I call Ma.
Pissed, she says she'll let him know soon as he gets home.


Waiting.
Felt nothing but genuine sadness as I wait in the cold.
A handful of others stand in the the departure drop-off. Did they feel just as defeated?
Were they just as sad they missed their flight, that streak-of-chance event bringing them closer to the one they love?


That darker than night evening did nothing but stand out in my mind.


I tell her the news.




I don't know why this happened.


I know why.
I'll call you when I get home.




Guilt.
Shame.
I give Him my thanks for His discipline.
Even when things seem bleak, Scripture reads to give thanks during all times, even the lame ones.


It didn't keep me from feeling horrible.


Our first conversation with so much revealed since the one in the car..back in those days that seem so long ago.


Confession.
We matured here.
She loves me still?
I love her even more.




Daytime.
I'm to leave in the afternoon for Toronto.
Stopping in Idontcare, Sumstateotherthanohio USA.
I wake, seeing nearly no point.
Eyes rolled in my waking moments.
I don't even remember this day.


Except...my aunt telling my mom she may have a flight for me.
One stopping in Cincinnati?
Nope.
Nah. Those don't sound good.


Hours later..






Hey...


Sooooooo I'll be arriving in Cincinnati in the afternoon.




And leaving the next afternoon.  
Think you can pick me up from the airport? :]